February 7, 2015
Self Knowledge
Yesterday was a great day. I had my little pep talk with myself and carried no guilt or shame from the day prior. I ate healthy with very little effort because my body wanted what was good for it. Because I was feeling great in all areas, physically, spiritually and emotionally, I was more active and productive. It all works together and with no forced effort or sacrifice I reclaimed two pounds. Victory.
So I have started my day with my devotional, Scripture reading and prayer, and now I begin to write. This blog / journal has become a necessity for me. I am not only finding my voice but a fountain of strength is bubbling up from within and spilling into every arena of my life. I am feeling so empowered.
I have always considered myself fairly intelligent and knowledgeable. And these past few weeks I have been specifically praying for and seeking wisdom. I’ve spent quite a bit of time reading the fourth proverb and praying for wisdom. In my study time this morning knowledge was really brought front and center. Specifically how we can miss out on blessings for a lack of knowledge.
I started pondering the concept of knowledge, really thinking about it. Knowledge is not as easily defined as one might think. And there are many layers to this idea that is knowledge.
Intellectually I feel fairly knowledgeable. I possess a solid base of general information, and more importantly, I know how to seek out and acquire knowledge. In this I mean, when faced with a problem or challenge, I can research, investigate, learn, interpret and formulate a plan.
Spiritually I have a strong knowledge of Who God is. I also understand and recognize that the more time I spend with Him, in His Word, and in prayer, the more He reveals to me and the stronger I become both in faith and in relationship with Him.
Nutritionally I have way more knowledge than anyone would guess by looking at me. Over the years I have accumulated information on every latest and greatest diet imaginable. I understand the concepts of calories, proteins, carbs, fats, ketosis, insulin resistance, antioxidants, thermogenic foods, exercise, hydration, and so on.
So why am I obese? Not just obese, morbidly obese?
There is an area of knowledge that I have neglected and even skewed. Self knowledge.
It’s easy to believe that 2+2=4, and gravity is a no brainer. If you mix blue with yellow it will become green. There are unlimited examples of proven knowledge and these are facts and they are easy to believe. My faith walk is also very strong and I have no doubt or hesitation about Who God is and what He does for me. So, for me, my faith is easy to believe.
But because of my insecurities I often have a hard time believing my own truths, or I buy into and believe the false truths about who I am, what I deserve or don’t deserve. My self knowledge is weak.
Through this blog / journal / journey I have been gaining a tremendous amount of self knowledge, maybe for the first time ever. And I am finding a whole lot to like and even be excited about. I am becoming very proud of who I am, what I can do and I am very hopeful and optimistic about what awaits me going forward.
I am living in my todays, finding triumphs and victories in the things that I can do, while planning and implementing for the future todays and all of my possibilities yet to come.
When I access and use my tools (devotional, Scripture, prayer, blog and healthy eating) I am strong and I feel good, really good, in every part of my life, physically, spiritually and emotionally. It forms a great foundation for my day, my today.
I am vital and I am worth it.
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