Who Am I?

January 22, 2015
Who am I?
Who am I? This is a tricky question with potential pitfalls. I want to be careful in how I identify myself. How I choose to classify myself can put me upon a path and set a direction. I must choose carefully.

This is another reason for my anonymity. It is easy to fall into the roll of victim here. A victim of circumstance. I want no more excuses for where I am at. My choices brought me to this point in my life, and equally true, my choices will now direct my path going forward.

I choose to go forward very deliberately and with purpose, no longer succumbing to the winds and waves of an arbitrary mind set.

So, who am I?

I am a woman beyond child bearing age. I have given birth and raised children. I am in a healthy marriage of long duration. I am a woman of faith, specifically faith in Jesus Christ as Savior. I am a daughter, sister, wife and mother. These roles are important and I believe that I perform them well. It’s where it relates to me that I have dropped the ball.

So I am obese. I am obese by the choices I have made. On this point I want to be very decisive and deliberate. I may not have chosen the obstacles that led me to where I am, but, this is key for me, I made the choices in how I responded to the obstacles. I chose the food I ate, and I chose the quantities. I am obese because of my choices and reactions, not because of my obstacles. My obstacles are no longer a part of my identity.

This will be a daily choice, and at times an hourly, or by the minute choice. I am proud to say that yesterday I made excellent food choices. I chose food that is good and nourishing for my body.

My body is an amazing creation with tremendous potential. By giving it proper nutrition, rest, activity and consideration, it holds the promise of regained health and vitality. And I want to be vital. I want to live deliberately and on purpose.

Each and every day holds so much promise. And each and every day I am yet one pound away from becoming even healthier and more vital.

Here’s to a life with direction…